Mistake

Hello, its been awhile hasn't it? But then again every time I post a new blogpost I write that. Been occupied and don't feel the urge to write as much as I used to. (Talk about having a life, huh?) Yeahh, you can say things have been okay. Foundation is about to end soon. The Grand Asasian Dinner is in 2 weeks time and Finals is in another 35 days. Time flies.

But that's not what I wanted to write about today. Its about making a mistake. Eventually everyone has made mistakes. Don't say you haven't. You aren't built a human robot, you know. Sometimes, we don't see the mistakes we've done. Instead, we see the mistakes people have done. Its unfair actually. How can we always notice other's mistakes, but not often do we realise the mistakes we've made ourselves. Maybe its how we look at each other from different perspectives. Unfair. Selfish in fact. But then again, life is not about always being fair, isn't it?

Sometimes I hope for things that are just too much and when things don't go my way, I try to blame the person that causes 'em to not work out. In my case today, my boyfriend. I expect so much from him and when he's unable to do so, I put all the blame on him. I don't ask him whether he's okay with the decisions I make. I just assume that he's gonna do whatever I say. When I say it this way, its pretty obvious how selfish I am isn't it?

But one thing about making mistakes though, not all apologies are meant to be accepted and that's when things get tougher. Mistakes are not to be let gone. But to be taken as a lesson. I dreadfully feel bad right now. Not only to him, have I made mistakes, but I bet others too. This sucks. Gotta find a way to undo the mistakes I've done. I'm hurting people. I'm losing people. Its scary.